I was first diagnosed with depression in 2009 or 2010. The psychiatrist told me that it was a “mild case.” He wrote me a prescription and sent me on my way, but I never got it filled. Not only was I under the assumption that the medication would cause me to be zoned out all the time, but I didn’t have insurance so I knew I likely wouldn’t even be able to afford it.
In reality, I just had no idea what my diagnosis really meant, and I didn’t have the slightest clue about being medicated for it. I knew something was wrong with me, but I didn’t understand why. If that even makes sense.
The purpose of this post is to help shed some light on what depression is really like. There are still too many people out there who don’t know how serious it can be. Some people still think it’s just “feeling down” or “sad,” when, in reality, it is so much more than that. Especially if someone has been diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder.
To help me shed some light on what depression is like, I asked some of my lovely friends on Twitter to share what depression feels like to them, using whatever language or comparison they want, and I’d like to share their responses with you.
What depression feels like
- A Dark Passenger that makes frequent, unannounced visits (my visualization)
- Dark cloud that constantly follows me around
- Blood-sucking parasite that sucks the life out of me
- An ominous shadow that follows me everywhere
- The ultimate drainer of my energy and will to do anything
Like a drowning. When it's only mild, it feels like small waves lapping on my feet. But sometimes the waves are big and so sudden. When I'm into deep, it feels like the water is closing in on me.
— Kristenne (@kreistnq) July 4, 2018
An invisible group of people holding you down to the ground, restraining you and leaving ur whole mind and body numb, powerless and self loathing.
— Sam Dailey (@MaddDawgDailey) July 4, 2018
Like trying to live life, while walking in mud. Some days it's ankle deep, some it's waist deep and most times, it's somewhere in between.
— Sue 🇨🇦 (@SusanEU) July 4, 2018
A cloud of numbness
— Caroline Billiot (@CaroElise96) July 4, 2018
Nothing. You feel nothing. You don't feel what you're supposed to feel. You do feel a mild blandness that makes you want to medicate with stuff you know you shouldn't do
— Autistic Priest (@AutisticPriest) July 5, 2018
An overwhelming sense of dread that never leaves, coupled with a tightness and pressure over my heart. Like looking at the world with storm-cloud colored glasses.
— Thelma Maria Belli (@WhatiCanChange) July 5, 2018
It feels like flying high, only for you to have your wings chopped and you watch yourself drop.
— Arun Paul Kapur 🐺 (@ArunKapur47) July 5, 2018
How you can help
If you or someone you know is dealing with depression, it is important that you educate yourself on the diagnosis so that you can truly understand what it means.
Are you wondering how you can help someone with depression? Be sure you check out my post that I wrote about how to help someone who is going through a depressive episode.
Please consider commenting if you have anything to add!